paranoid ko!

indi ko lng mabal.an sa ulihi na ang indi ko gusto matabo... Natabo... Basi lung anu mahimu ko... wala ko kablo kung ma worry ko or mangakig the fact the 3 hrs na sa la ka text... kanami shagit... As in! i feel strange... And i know when i feel something may ara gid na... Dugay ko man ni wala na feel... The last time was sang nag bonutig sa kay nag kita.ay sila ni kharyn... This time... jusko... Indi man tani... haaaay!!!!!! Kay nga.a maskin isa lang ka text indi gid sa ka hambal kung na anu sa... Kung natulugan lang or busy lang...

Ambot lng...

kanami na tani sang adlaw nmn mu....until.... malantaw lng gid ko profile ya sa fb... Ara mana sa... Nga.a bi indi gid sa magpalantaw? Kay man may gina tago guro mu... haaay... kung siya gani free siya na buksan tanan na account ko... dasun aku ya fb lng gid... Indi gid pwed? pati gani mga pm sa fb gina basa ya pa gid... Aku ya ma lantaw lng man ah... Indi mn ko mang basa... Indi mana cgoro pag tagu.on lung wala may ginatago? kailinit lng... Kag ka unfair... Dasun kblo mana sa nga syempre masubggod ko eh... Sino man b indi mag sunggod... ka unfair lng gid ya sa iya... Na init ko sang feeling na imbis indi ka mag duda... Ma duda kana lng... Joke pa kono... Joke gin close? hmmm kay cgoro may ginatago...

i was wrong...

Kung anu2x manngid gina paminsar ko pirmi... Gaka overthink ko na gani...i knowhe loves me gid... And thankful ko for that... i just hope na makayanan namun ang trials kay kblo ko na damu pani ma abot... we can do this... Until the end. 😘

wala lang...

Spend the whole afternoon together with mav., ate dinner at his aunts place... We had some random chit chat and passed by the topic about love and beig practical... Naka mention pa siya na thats why di yako mabreakan kay damu pa sa utang... I know it was just a joke...jokes are half meant as they say...pro do napa isip man ko... Naka mention pa sa daan na ang love pwed lang na ma learn... Wht if amu na bi nabatyagan ya sakun? before daan hambal ya sa ex ya abi ya ma learn ya man e love mu... what if tuod nalu.oy mn siya sakun kay damu sa pasalamatan sakun? Daw wala man ko ga isip sang na himu kag nabulig ko sa iya... Pro siya gina isip ya gid ang utang ya and then mahambal siya na thats why indi yako mabaya.an... It makes me wonder kung love ya man gid ko tuod... Kay before ga hambal man sa i love you and sweet mn siya sa ex ya na... basi lang bala haw... And then pag nag abot naman ang isa ma relaize ya na indi yako gli tuod love... Na abi ya ma learn yaku palangga.on... And ma end up sa kaluoy na lng ang nabatyagan ya for

me... Ahay... Indi man tani... kay nga.a ka happs lng man tyod sa iya ma hambal na tapuson na lng nmn... Na indi na sa... Na natak.an nasa... Daw kasakit mana batyagon man... basi bala gina reverse psychology ya lng ko na sagi tulod kay jy... Na naluyah pako kay jy... Kay siya ya glu amu na nafeel sa ex ya... Na naluyag pasa kay sarah... Haiz... 

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gusto lbg mahibi na mahibi ma mhibi... Nasubu.an gid ko tonight ya... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

you got it all~

Tiring day at work... Went to his house and didn't expect i'd be stressed relief. Well, he does that all the time.. With all the little thinhs he does to make me happy... Had a good moment together... I've nver seen him like that...so affectionate and giving it all... had to cry in the middle coz i felt how much he loves me and i feel the same way... I always get emotional whener were like this coz i feel so happy that I have him... Realized he did it again... he have it all to me.. just scared I might get pregnant with him doing that for 3 consecutive times already... I just love him so much... 

I choose you simply bcoz i love you.

last night he was kind of i don't know.. But it made realize that he doesn't want to lose me either...didn't expext he would say I will leave just because he can't graduate...like whay i did with my ex... I wish he realized that I left jy bcoz I love him much more than i did loved jy.. I chose him not bcoz his capable of being a responsible person someday for our better future...i chose him simply bcoz I love him so much I'm willing to give up everything and I found the true and real happiness with him. Yes, with jy i can get anything i want and go to places i want to without spending anything... But its all material things.. i'm not happy with that.. With him I found happiness in all the smallest thing i could imagine... And the important thing is us... Each other... Thats all that matters to me... Our love and affection for eac other...

Stress lang

Ever since we started there are a lot of problems and trials... and now we are facing this problem... Indi gid ko ma give up and i totally understand his side... Indi mani reason para ma give up kmi kag ma break na lng... I know my family doesn't likehim and  the fact na may bata siya... I don't care and it doesn't matter for me... Batun ko na ya tanan... And i love him for whatever reasons...Indi lng tani nila mabal.an ang mga bagay na kablo ko kung mabal.an nila mahambal gid sila na indi to stay away from hin...Haiz...kaya ko mana tanan given the resources and understanding... Galing kis.a ka kapoy lng gid.... Especially king stressful na gid katama and I've given my best.. Dasun it will tirned out nothing lang... haay... Life... Tama na pls.... 

Frustrating... 😮

i really want to help him with his problem... And i know he really wants to enroll...  Its just that my hindrance gid ya... I felt so frustrated about sa lending... i thought matapos na that day... But it turned out to nothing... Kailinit lng gid kay its like its in my hands na maka enroll siya... 😕 plus the fact that i can't lend him money kay wala gid ko savings... Huhuhu... i want him to enroll gid... Kasakit sa ulo to the point na kanami shagit kag hibi kay wala gid chansa ya...😭😭😭😭😭😭... so many problems... So many balayran pa gid ko... Haiz... 😫😫😫😫😫