I hate myself

I know I shouldn't be comparing myaelf from the past... But I can't help it... It makes me think thats qhy she's too confident to say she was the most loved because she can see the difference between her and me... And it makes me insecure...  The fact that he can't give time in deleting those love churva in his timeline, makes me more irritated and jealous! I wish he can be shout it out loud so she can see that i am loved more than her... grrr... Insecuries is killing me!